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2011. For the hiphop world, it was a good year. The Sideline Story, Ambition, Undun, Take Care, The dreamer, The believer, Charity starts at home, just to name a few. For me, however, it was a rise-and-fall year.
One of the things I encourage everyone who still has the chance to do is study abroad. Going away from home, living, learning, exploring, studying, and traveling is something that is worth one’s time and money. I was so lucky to go with the people I did, and through the short 9 weeks I was there, I learned a lot about myself and about another part of the world. Spending my 21st birthday in another country away from other family and friends was a different experience but also something I will never forget. I also was able to appreciate small conveniences that I often take for granted at home.
With my brother’s return from the Navy and his presence at home, I was able to truly understand the importance and sanctity of family. Through small gestures of affection to explicit tough love, I have experienced and bore witness to unconditional love. I am able to truly be happy knowing that I have something that many can not and do not have, a full family of love, appreciation, and integrity. The relationship that I share with my cousins and my brother has also led to believe that when there is nothing else, when there is everything, there is always and only family. My parents and their support, their forgiveness for my flaws and mistakes continues to teach me how to forgive and love others.
Being lucky isn’t enough. Being able to recognize an opportunity and seizing it is what it takes to get what you want and deserve. I was lucky enough to find my boyfriend and even though time and time again I make mistakes and have hurt and endangered him, he continues to remain my rock and continues to forgive and to give. I have come to see throughout 2011, I am truly blessed to have crossed paths with him and that we continue to experience newness and growth. Thank you for always motivating me and pushing me in the right direction, for making me feel beautiful when I hate myself, and for always being on my side, for forgiving my biggest mistakes, and allowing me to make some to grow, and for loving me for all of me. I believe that when you truly love someone, you begin to find familiarity with his/her flaws, and because you know them they become something that you accept, and soon treasure.
As 2011 comes to a close and we add another year to our lives, our friend database becomes more scarce but dense. The people that you swore would be at your wedding are now people who you barely see or sometimes check on facebook. This year has been a turning point for me in seeing who I need and want in my life rather than those who trying to be friends with becomes a chore. I realized after many years of disappointment that people who want to be in your life will try to remain there and others who don’t give you the time of day don’t deserve a second of your time. It’s about quality rather than quantity when it comes to friends. As you grow older people will drop in and out of your life and those who are worth staying will. It’s a sad fact, but a fact nevertheless.
2011 was a memorable year, and has had it’s share of disappointment, anguish, tears, but also laughs, smiles, and photographs. I hope that 2012 is one full of promise and joy for all that I love and care about.
going to the UK to study abroad at Sussex University in Brighton for 2 months. i’ll try my best to keep this blog updated at least weekly with pictures and witty commentary.
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